zzz twisting my words wont make you any better.

and trying to bitch about me to my friend aint gonna help.

go, pull up your socks.

wtf.

end my shopping here
;2:40 AM

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Was reading tzuhsiang's tumblr and here,

was thinking about how I've missed and lost this year.

Yea the freaking A levels. I procrastinate. I'm suppose to be studying Econs now, but somethings are much more important? To me that is.

I think As show the many side of people. And yea I became tougher, surely. And a lil bit more disciplined. Its kinda to read through my archives too. Emo posts everywhere. (haha i remember quoting /th's emo poem) I was an unhappy teen. Not satisfied with this and that. And because of my huge ego, I wouldn't let certain things past and this has haunted me until now. Yes my ego is damn freaking big. 

& I get upset, when I get criticised. Surely, who likes being criticised? I like to joke and laugh at people. I know this is evil. But this is me. I do get comforted when people know that I'm really joking and I know my limits.

Like what /th mentioned friendship and proximity, like I always tell yixin, 'it's an eventually thing!' feeling kinda dejavu cos in the afternoon I was slacking around and lazing around and thinking about how things have changed. What used to be is no longer there. I'm glad for the people who stay by me all this while, and those who haven't left. And I was thinking about singing K (and I thought about /th lol) my regular K buddy :D and I was wondering, woah, next year everyone would probably at different parts of the world, making new friends. Maybe replacing some. I would definitely miss many people. 

Back to the point, A levels has took up hell load of my time. I would have used it to slack/watch tv/go tumblring/ or simply spending more time with a friend. It sucks when you're feeling like shit but your friends (and yourself) have a paper the next day. So, I gotta deal with it alone. And this, made me stronger.

I've probably deal with most of my problems alone. I mean your friends cant help you in every way. Probably people find me mysterious, antisocial, hard to associate with. I tried to change, to become more friendly. But I found myself really fake. So here I am. I'm just posting whatever that comes to my mind so I doubt this post has any logical meaning.

I would have volunteered at YOG if not for A levels. And would have done much much more. I have a least of things to do. Vain things and maybe meaningful things that I hope I can accomplished. Because if I don't do it now, then when? After I leave university? (that's if I can get in one -.-) I'll probably be job hunting. And I find it really sad that the only time to enjoy life next is retirement?! When you're old and feeble, sickly. And all you hope is just for more time, to spend with your loved ones. And hopefully, you leave this world with no regrets. I remembered I posted something about life should begin backwards as quoted from some guy. But afterall this is espoused ideals. Should we? Should we not? We should. But are we doing anything?

Ah this post isn't going nowhere. And if I could have any quote,

Live with no regrets.

end my shopping here
;9:13 PM

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http://www.peta.org/features/professional-laboratory-and-research-services.aspx

2 words:

Its sad.

end my shopping here
;8:05 PM

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